Every now and again, you meet a person that makes absolute and fundamental sense to your soul.
Gender, race, age, appearance – none of it matters. Somehow, in this big universe, you just click.
Attached to the house I currently live in, is a separate rental granny flat. For too short of a time, my friend Laurence stayed there. I met him the day he moved in, and last saw him about 4 months ago, the day he moved out.
Unfortunately, because of work, Laurence couldn’t stay. He tried. He worked the longest hours I have ever seen anyone work, trying his level best to support his family.
But eventually, the long hours took their toll, and Laurence went back to Villiersdorp.
Such was our connection that we stayed in touch. He had the absolute best sense of humour. I have never come across the like. We chatted via WhatsApp and I started making a few plans to visit him and his wife.
This was our conversation on Wednesday 17 January 2018.
On Saturday 20 January, Laurence with the easy laugh and massive smile and the best love I have ever seen for another, hung himself.
I found out about his death on the Sunday. But only yesterday did his wife Ruth tell me what happened.
I simply cannot fathom it. Not for one moment. My brain refuses to comprehend that this man of integrity and love and light, hung himself.
That he found himself in such a state of despair, that in a mad moment of sadness, he thought he needed to end his existence.
Pain is a funny old thing. Physical or mental. It creeps into your bones and turns them into lead. It saturates your existence like a feather light armour you don’t even know you are wearing.
It sets in by degrees. And slowly leaches the light and the life from your eyes.
Laurence was a legend. He moved into the granny flat next door and, just because I had the privilege of knowing him, he made my world a better place.
He was honest and real and genuine and true.
He worked hard and he adored his family.
He touched my soul.
Unfortunately, because of something I don’t know or understand, Laurence couldn’t stay.
I will miss you. The you I knew but also the you I never had the chance to know.
Thank you for making my life better, just for being in it.
I know your light is shining bright, there where you are. I hope it is surrounded by all the things you have loved, that passed before.
See you later, my friend.